AUTHOR: Mark TITLE: DATE: 8:33:00 PM ----- BODY: Here we are a week from Christmas, bah!! I'm not a huge Christmas fan, or so I say. I actually down deep have a strong love for Christmas. I love warm, intimate moments with friends and family, I like giving things to people, and I even love the Christmas atmosphere. I think it is the guilt that comes with gifts and moments. The gifts I give, seem to not always be what I want to give. I want to give so much more, but financially I could be better, so I give the "okay" gifts. And then I feel bad because I couldn't get anyone what I really wanted to get them and I feel bad because I am poor and I feel like a loser because EVERYONE's got money. Or so the Germans would have us believe. I am very excited about graduate school. It feels so far away and the process of getting there is going to be very tedious and stressful. I pray that if this truly is God's decision, that things will smooth out. We shall See. --------